Falling into the trap, I don't realize that im the problem. You give me the attention I've always wanted but the hidden conditions kill me. Im a quite little shy girl who wont speak up for herself. Scrolling on fb my hearts sinks when I see a picture of you with someone else. You don't talk to me and inside im screaming I want you. I don't think I even like you THAT much. You give me what I can't receive on my own.
I always thought I could lean on them. But apparently the others don't agree. They love me and they would do anything for me. I know it and I can feel it. But I don't give them the opportunity because I block myself from being a problem. I wont open up about my problems because I feel dumb and unimportant. Id I tell them something they're going to think im inexperienced and dumb. The stigma that I set to myself is detrimental  because I can't feel important or better yet special. I feel like everyone around me can do what im doing and I have no value. But I don't know what to believe because I know I mean something...something. what a vauge pronoun.