How do you know?

So about after a week of being depressing and sick I finally go out. And this is different than your typical hangout with your girlfriends. Something in me knew it. It started out with 3. Hanging out with 3 can be awkward especially in this situation. 2 girls and 1 boy. Things get worse when one bails. Can you guess who bailed? Oh yeah. Well from this point I'm thinking that going to the movies...the drive-ins...could be weird....but its not weird unless you make it weird right. Right! Right? Well I went in with that mentality. Plant of the App's is what we saw so it wasn't one of thooose movies. Hahaha. Anywaysssss we got there. And well we cuddled a lot....well the whole movies expect the first ten minutes. It was fun. I kinda had forgot what it was like being hold by someone else because I never open up. I'm not good with awkward or weird. I just stay away. I swear when I grow up I'm going to need someone to deal with me because I'm not going to open up or try or anything. I soo screwed. Back to it. By the end, I didn't over analyze nothing. It was like nothing ever happened. I just stored it.

I watched How Do You Know? today...we'll i haven't finished it but i got to thinking how do you know something is special? magical? I think I'm just to independent to try to find someone else to hold me. Is that bad? Am I wrong? Well ill just have it deal with it. But something I learned from a great friend...Life, it goes on....and I'm done thinking about the bad things.